If ever you wonder about the man in your life... you amy want to look inside. Look inside to see a different side of a man.
Look inside, realize that he can and does feel for you something different, something special. He wakes up in the morning and you're the first think on his mind. If he could call you right then and there, he would. When he sees you, his heart leaps. Not just the first time, not just when you're 'alone', but every time. Every time he meets you, it's as if his whole world has been renewed. It doesnt matter if its raining, or sunny, pleasant or dreary. You amke the rain tender, the sun warmer, a dreary day funny, and a pleasant day perfect. Without you, his days would have no meaning. Of course, you say, "but there could be another..." He says, "there isnt another. you are the only one..." He brings you flowers, he writes you poems, he gives you the sweetest things. Not so you'll like him more, or so you'll give him a kiss, but because he simply loves to make you happy. To see that smile on your face. Though you never know it, it takes him a long time to get the courage to tell his feelings to you. Yes, he was nervous... scared. All guys are. While they try to seem tough and insensitive, deep down, asking a girl out is the hardest thing in the world. And it's only that hard because of you. You just had to be so perfect, so beautiful that his fear of rejection became overwhelming. And the day you know about it and says you're okay about it was the best day of his life.
Look inside, sometimes you find something that you weren't looking for. Though he won't admit it, he'd rather much cuddle you in front of the TV for an evening than to go out with the guys (well, most of the time). When you hold his hand, when he holds yours, it's the best feeling in the world. And when he sees you hurt or crying, it's ripping his heart in two. Deep down, he's a romantic. He'd love to sing you songs, but he's just shy coz he just doesnt have the voice. He'd love to take you on a moonlit walk down the beach, but has to settle for a stroll anywhere. He wishes he could bring you your favorite flowers everyday but his wallet just won't let him. Making you happy is his main goal in life. Some would say that a guy like this is not a man. He is too sensitive, too weal. But I say, for all the reasons given here, that these things are precisely what makes him a man. And you existence alone has already completed his life. You are not aware of it, but he cherishes each and every moment with you as if it could be his last. Because deep down, he is afraid that you may just decide to leave. And that is his biggest fear. And if you did leave, this man would cry. Each second with you completes him. Wheter you are walking together somewhere, cuddling on a chair, sharing an ice cream cone, or simply talking, even on the phone. No matter what it is you are doing, it makes him completely happy just to be with you.
Look inside. It is often surprising. The little things are what he cherishes most. When he gets to brush your hair, when you accidentally (or perhaps on purpose) brush fingertips. When you call unexpectedly just to say "hi". All the simplest things. Simply being there. He would, if given the chance, die for you. This may seem ridiculous but he would gladly give up anything and all for you.
Just look inside. And you may find something worth holding on to. Now, just look around... because this guy is out there. Right now, at this very second, he is thinking of you. You may not or may not know who he is. He may be you boyfriend, you best 'guy friend', or he could be someone you've never met. All the same, someday all he'll want to do is to make you happy.
Look inside, Ive loved and been loved. I've hutn and been hurt. This is life. But beleive me, true love still exists. All you have to do is look for it. I know I do... each and everyday...and to that girl I have not yet found, (I know I already found her) simply--- I love you.
Look inside.
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To the girl that I know I will love until forever...
I just hope one day that we'll end up together. I pray that our paths may cross once again and when that day comes, we'll never have to part again. Right now, I will just have to wait and see. It hurts to be away from her and hoping is not as easy at it is said. It is really difficult to have to hang on to uncertainty, when every time the phone rings, someone rings the doorbell, someone sends me a text message on my mobile, or an e-mail, I'd wish it was her. I wish so badly for it to be her.
It hurts that when the time came that I finally found the person I'd want to spend my life with, she lets go of what we have. I've never felt this degree of wanting someone so bad that you see a life with her and that you cannot imagine yourself with anyone else anymore. I didnt want anything else. I wanted her.
Though I know I am still young and would meet more people in the future, I know that it is her I want, I need, I love. It wouldve been easier to let what happened pass if she didnt mean anything to me or if love wasnt something that I strongly felt for her. But she was my world, she was my everything. That is why it isnt easy. It isnt easy at all.
Now, I sit here unable to move and simply hanging on to a hope that is quite unsure. Until my prayers are answeered, my heart would be an empty vessel because one rainy Wednesday evening, I lost the world.
